Update on my Coastie!

Okay, so… Elliot leaves for bootcamp on June 5th. (It’s that time already?!) He’s starting to get anxious since his last day of work is today (he’s taking a month off to prepare for BC). 

Our lives are so up in the air right now. We have one more week of school…then he leaves and I start working full time. We can’t seem to get on schedule and I don’t want to stress before he leaves. I just want to enjoy him and enjoy our life in this moment. 

If anyone has any tips on what to do before he leaves or even after he leaves, shoot me a reply. ?

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Wake up call…

I woke up yesterday morning to sweet kisses from my boyfriend. It was right at that moment that it hit me. I really don’t know if I’m ready for him to go to bootcamp. He will be gone this whole summer and every break after that.

This semester is the last semester we will share a schedule and a school. He will change this summer, most likely permanently (and I know for the better, but still). I love him the way he is. I just don’t want to be left behind. 

I had no idea I felt like this at all until that moment and I just started crying. Every time someone has asked me how I felt, I’ve been 100% supportive and on board.

I do support, love and respect him…

…but… I really don’t want him to go.

He’s the most important person in my life. He’s my best friend. He’s the one that changed my life. He made me a better person. We’ve haven’t been apart for more than a week in over two years. What am I going to do without him?

We move into our apartment a week from tomorrow. We’re making a home for ourselves. This should be the time of our lives and I’m starting to (for lack of a better term) freak out. 

I know I’m going to have to be the strong one here. But at the moment, I feel pretty darn weak. 

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